Work it out

Its has been a long time since my last post

not because I am too busy but I am too lazy

to share and to tell EVERYBODY what I am doing 

u know, time passed, and I started to be as low profile as I could

as secretly as I could

so that people wouldn't repeat the same questions over and over again about my current life

and I can live happily ever after AGAIN

I am a lucky one, after a life changing journey in New Zealand, everything went on very smooth when I first arrived at Singapore

I got a job within a month, not a career that people expect me to engage in though, neither myself will ever thought that I am going to be in this industry 

nice working environment, nice managers, nice colleagues. well, though there were still some unsatisfied parts like long working hours, low pay? some bad customers as well, but overall, I am feeling good 

people appreciate my hard works and they pay respect to me

as lucky as I always do, I get a chance to join my company's exhibition team on the latest Hong Kong exhibition even I still consider as a newcomer

but.... I have to say

things doesn't seem to go so well this time cause we are working with boss, GM etc....

and to many people out there, it is a time to show, A SHOW TIME!

show how clever u are, how hardworking u are, and show their seniority toward juniors...

and I started to realize why people always said colleagues can't be friend,  (not all of them of cause)

because they back-step

they scare of the feeling to lose (kiasu)

they want to prove to you that they are alot more intelligent than you so they look down at you and push you down the stair

AND
they are two-faced wtf

finally I see using my very own eye, office politic

of cause, I'm facing a problem which I always give a not so good first impression to my colleagues because of my look wtf! people doubted on my ability to work mostly because I look kiddy... haiz~~~ always.

so I'm not a likeable one in the show, and maybe I am just too slow to catch up their speed so they dun kiss my ass...

It is a wake up call har, perhaps I haven't go far enough to achieve company's expectations and not good enough in handling relationship between colleagues. (yeah, I dun do ass-kissing job) 

one of my seniors told me this on my first day: 

来到这里，就是要表现，因为老板在这里

looks like I am not on my A game throughout the show as far

one of my seniors told me this on my last day:

你以后想来，老板也不会让你来

OK...
maybe this is your own judgement? I may already screwed up my chance to "perform" this time, yet I am still dedicated to my work and I try all my hardest to make things work, just like what y'all did

I have no regret and I dun think I am that bad

I smiled at that moment, did I felt sad and disappointed? No at all

I got nothing to lose

and I spoke to myself:

我会是藏在墙缝里的菩提树种子

别让我逮到机会出头

我会吞没你这个大厦

and thanks for these words, y'all woke up me

what a pose, Mr. Statue!

photo taken at Wong Dai Xin Temple

Nice hair style Mr. Dragon~